I had a fight :(

Djakarta, 12.04.05 -00.25-

dOh .. keQnya hari ini bete gitu Tulisan blog gue .. maap yak .. lage pngen mellow2..

i Hate Today .. had a fight with my mOm.. :( :( ..
for small reasOn jadi gede .. *sigh* PMS rese :( :( :( ..
argh... sometimes i hate being myself ..

silly things .. and i really hate myself for fighting with her ..
why would they blame me for all the things i`ve done .. my friends .. my life ..
everything ..

Eversince i`m a lil girl they thought me the bitterness of life .. got blame for all the things i think i did to defend them.. i love them so much .. and being a complete idiOt for not knowing how to show it to them .. that`s why for some reason they always thinks that i never loved them at all... well i s`pose i shud just switched place with my lil bro .. and everything would be great ..

One time .. i got screwed so bad .. i got this backstabber who`s happen to be my best friend .. :D haha yeah .. she somehow tell my parents Shitty things yg ada bner2nya jg ngga .. :D haha kerennya they believed it .. :D .. yeah i was torn .. i gotta be back to Jkt for that stOOpid reason .. From 1 persOn who has almOst everything on her hand .. to somebody who has nothing .. :p .. it`s not the matter HOW they send me back .. but what`s matters most is having the persOn whom s`pose to be there to support u, din believe a single words u`re saying.. i was so dead inside :p .. *gaya* haha .. yeah i tried so many times to suicide myself.. coz basically i dun have anything else to hold on to .. until 1 time i realized how stoopid i am :p
so by then i start rebuilding myself.. to be better n stronger *gaya wonder woman* hahaha :p .. oh well ..

yah .. i got some missfortune in my life but i`m fortunate enough to be alive to this very day .. makanya i hate ppl yg gara2 hal2 kecil apa udah mo suicide .. :p dOh .. u only life once .. so live your life to the fullest.. yeah the scars remain .. but at least it shows u that u`re alive :p and capable of handling problems and still standing afterwards...

so my life is not aLL [b]fun[/b] after all huh :p ..
waktu itu ada yg pernah critisize me for being too naive coz all i know is only fun .. haha :D .. u know nothing about my life .. makanya i hate ppl judging anyone juz by their appearance ..

hahah .. do i sound pathetic enough ? well i guess so .. :p ..
yah bOdo ah .. i`m what i am.. if u can`t deal with it well.. screw u .. :p *gaya anak punk* mwahahaha :p ..

oh well .. i cried for my stupidity during my way to meet my friend .. *sigh*
hmpf.. sutrah lah .. enuf melow for today :p ..

well.. tadi gua ketemu tmen gua akhirnya .. dah 3 taOn lebih gua nga ketemu dia .. :p makin tua Kliatannya :D hahaha .. moga2 sukses deh dia :p ..
tadi dia nawarin gua franchise resto di jkt .. yg waktu itu nYokap gua pernah nanyak mo bikin usaha laen .. akhirnya i have this thought .. well maybe she`s interested on this type of business.. it`s food afterall :p .. ntr de kalo dah baekan gua ceritain ke dia .. *hmpf .. :( :( ...

hm... smpet ketemu sama tmen lama gua tadi ngga sengaja.. haha makin cantek deh dia skarang :p .. oh well.. kita ngObrol2 sbntr trus balek deh ..
*sigh* ..